Deep in my heart

This is my confession . I’m writing it not for you, but for me. There’s something I need to express. The three words can’t convey the depth of what I feel, the impact you have had, the admiration I have, the joy I know. To say “I love you!” is not nearly enough. Wrapped in those words is much beyond communication it is impossible to carry what love, what appreciation, what esteem, what wonderment, I have for you. Much in secret, some openly I’ve tried in gifts, in words, in deeds to show you love - the love I have, the love I feel, the love I need to simply return to you, my friend. I know I have failed. For success is not possible. What is inside of me tries to manifest on the outside but the “in” can’t be seen on the “out” though it overflows. It replenishes itself never fully emptying, so never fully expressed.

I have confessed. Still I doubt you’ll ever understand how much I truly love you, what you mean to me, who you are in my eyes, how you’ve changed me. I love you more than anyone I’ve ever known. You’ve influenced me for good more than any person ever has. I’ve been truly blessed and honored and privileged to know you, to call you “just” as friend. Now, where are you going? To others you will impact? I will fade into memory, distance will keep us apart but you will forever remain an immense piece of my heart. I love you.